| She's a triumph of Self-Delusion. |
Monday
July 21st, 2025 at 12:50pm |
the art and life [%90] are public - the feelings [%10] are not.
so.
a). add me.
b). comment. mention with why you added me & why you think i should add you back. :)
COOL BEANS.
*note : if you add me and we don't talk , i'll unadd you , simple as that .
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Daft Punk - Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger |
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Saturday
October 24th, 2009 at 1:35pm |
Hey assholes !
I wanted to make something for you, just for you ♥
Here is a mix CD I made with you in mind.
It's perfect for when you want to be happy, when you want to paint or craft or draw
when you want to smile and know the world loves you !
and that you are beautiful
and that everything happens for a reason .
☆1. In the Lost and Found by Elliot Smith
☆2. New in Town by Little Boots
☆3. Abracadabra by 브라운아이드걸스
☆4. Virus of the Mind by Heather Nova
☆5. Beautiful Things by Emm Gryner
☆6. Getting Better from the Cat in the Hat Soundtrack
☆7. You Make My Dreams Come True by Hall and Oats
☆8. Over and Over by Hot Chip
☆9. Dusk Till Dawn by Ladyhawke
☆10. I've Got my Love to Keep Him Warm by Les Brown and His Band of Reno
☆11. Golden Phone by Micachu
☆12. Good Day by Nappy Roots
☆13. Too Too Too Fast by Ra Ra Riot
☆14. Sailor Moon Theme [S.A.F. Remix] from the Full Moon Collection Soundtrack
☆15. Emerald City by U.S.E
☆16. Girlfriend REMIX by Avril Lavigne featuring Lil' Mama
☆17. La La La by The Bird and the Bee
☆18. Go Out and Love Someone by Pogo
CLICK TO DOWNLOAD ♥
I hope you enjoy it as much as I do ♥
you are a princess, don't tell anyone tell you different
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Friday
October 2nd, 2009 at 3:00pm |
dancing without sight,
your other senses are heightened.
detecting distant movement and reacting before impact,
that is a tango in the dark .
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Friday
September 25th, 2009 at 2:31pm |
( you walked into the room and assumed that the whole world spins for you )
They say summer love is fleeting .
But sometimes what starts as a fling , can lead to the real thing .
A simple trip to the beach can be all it takes to clear our heads and open our hearts ,
and write a new ending to an old story . There are those who got burned by the heat . They just want to forget and start over .
While there are others who want each moment to last forever .
But everyone can agree on one thing - tans fade , highlights go dark , and we all get sick of getting sand in our shoes.
I hope that these happy, peaceful days continue .
That’s truly what I’ll always want .
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| pick apart the pieces of your heart and let me peer inside |
Sunday
September 6th, 2009 at 10:28am |
( let me occupy your mind as you do mine )
On September 1st I started my fifth year of highschool . It's a little strange being back, especially after not being at school for so long [I was working on courses via correspondence last year due to my illness].
I'm feeling very positive about it , despite having to fight with vice principals and guidance counsellors to get the classes I need .
I'm doing my best to be productive and do well at school .
I really want to be successful . One of my biggest fears is not reaching my dreams , not by lack of ability but by lack of drive .
RENT rehearsals are getting so intense ! 11 weeks until the show .
We practice twice a week for five hours !
It should be fun , but between work and school and RENT my sleeping schedule is depleting quickly .
Things are actually pretty great for me right now .
Captain and I had a date last night , and it was really lovely .
And in October we have tickets to go see Brent Butt do standup , which should be amazing ! ♥
Also , in the next few weeks I should have many new arts to show you .
I'm working on a piece for an art opening called 'Beauty Interpreted' , as well as having art class again !
Deadlines are a very good thing for me , if I didn't have them I would finish nothing .
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Monday
August 24th, 2009 at 12:30pm |
( and saying no to all the things i want to say yes to )
I’ve been working a LOT this summer . Trying to save up my money for school , and for a laptop . I want a Mac laptop , do you have any recommendations ? I want a really nice one since I intend to have it for the next 5+ years , and I need it for school . The new Macbooks are pretty snazzy looking , but so expensive !
I made a list of all the things I wanted to do before summer ended , and I’ve barely even done one of them . Certainly made an effort , but have completed nothing . Summer is too short ! Do you do that too , make lists ? My mother is a compulsive list-maker , so I try to stay away from it . To me , it’s a whole new level of obsessive compulsive .
It’s looking like Chloe and I will be at FanExpo this weekend , but only the Saturday . We start school on the Monday so it would be foolish for us to go all three days . If you see me , please approach me and say hi !
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| if you're asking me to quit then you're asking me to be someone i'm not |
Saturday
July 11th, 2009 at 7:22pm |
( ”♥” )
The more Captain and I talked , the more we realized we missed each other’s companionship . So we began to talk more and more , until we spoke on the phone for at least an hour every day .
And , at first , it was enough for me . I’m not very good at giving advice , but it didn’t matter . Mostly he just wanted someone to listen . Being that person , the person he tells everything to , made me feel happy and useful . Sometimes I think that , for the most part , everyone already knows how to solve their problems .
He is very confused . And to be honest , even now I don’t understand fully . Being unsure of what you want is a foreign concept to me . I always know what I want .
In the end , it’s a matter of whom you wish to please . Yourself – or your conscience . What are you searching for ? Happiness , or peace of mind ?
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Thursday
June 18th, 2009 at 11:46am |
( tell me this was all for something )
Captain and I spoke on an almost daily basis , but even though we talked it felt like we aren’t really saying anything . Simple short pleasantries , nothing with content , neither of us wanting to talk about how we’re really feeling .
On the 10th we went and had coffee . And talked about a lot of things .
It was the first time we’d seen each other in two months basically .
He was avoiding me , but he’ll tell you otherwise .
In the time that has passed I’ve begun to learn that each morning reasserts the problems of the night before , that sleep suspends all but changes nothing , that you can’t make yourself over between dawn and dusk .
It was surprising how well he was still able to read my body language . Sometimes I found it hard to remember the way he had been treating me, sometimes I discovered myself thoughtlessly slipping back into affection for him again .
“I want to sincerely thank you for being my best friend . I know it hurts to hear , but thank you so much .”
It was a courageous thing for him to say , I suppose . Exposing a sincere emotion nakedly like that surprised me , only because we hadn’t really had a conversation that actually means something for awhile .
I should have told him that he was my best friend also and rounded off what he had said . I started to; I nearly did . But something held me back .
Perhaps I was stopped by that level of feeling , deeper than thought , which contains the truth .
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| It should take you about four seconds to cross from here to that door . I'll give you two . |
Monday
May 18th, 2009 at 1:22am |
( kiss me , then make up your mind , they say i'm not the loving kind )
Remember Charles Boyer ?
Suave , dapper , handsome , graceful . Lover of the most famous and beautiful ladies of the silver screen .
That was on camera and in the fan magazines . In real life it was different .
There was only one woman . For fourty-four years . His wife , Patricia . Friends said it was a lifelong love affair .
They were no less friends and lovers and companions after fourty-four years than after the first year .
Then Patricia developed cancer of the liver .
And though the doctors told Charles , he could not bear to tell her . And so he sat by her bedside to provide hope and cheer .
Day and night , for six months . He could not change the inevitable . Nobody could .
And Patricia died in his arms .
Two days later , Charles Boyer was also dead . By his own hand . He said he did not want to live without her .
He said , 'Her love was life to me .'
It's not for me to pass judgement on how he handled his grief . But I will say that I am touched and comforted in a strange way . Touched by the depth of love behind the apparent sham of a Hollywood love life .
Comforted to know that two people can love each other that much that long .
I don't know how I would handle my grief in similar circumstances .
But there were moments on May 15th , when I looked across the restaurant and watched the boy who once was mine . And that's when I understood why Charles Boyer did what he did .
It really is possible to love someone that much . I know .
I'm certain of it .
♥
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